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Monday, February 25, 2008

[ pics pics and more pics~ ]

85 of them in total.. and i was already being very selective! this is a post specially for yj =D (so that she'll quit whining abt not getting pics =p)

1) clubbing at butterfactory with c, daph, di, joseph, leon and mark (we went for prata later but no pics) we ended up at butter cos there was a crazy crowd at zouk that night (i heard that the nus med and law pple had a mass outing there -_-) the dance floor was empty! but the place was nice =) in one of the shots, our pose was to like fly.. unfortunately the pic wasn't that great =(

2) timbre with leon, c and di =) we went there for the goodfellas but were tricked =( it was another band there that night =( had fun camwhoring there though.. c and her new multicoloured boobs!

3) nydc with c, di, leon =) leon telling us abt his gimmicky choker thing (supposed to make u energised -_-) haha!

4) balaclava with c, daph, di, leon, joseph, rachel =) there to watch eic! supposedly we have to be above 25 to get in, but no one bothered checking our IDs.. my green drink (kiwi margarita) we nicknamed shrek (which i exchanged with joseph for =) girls in white and guys left to bond by themselves =D and of cos, us squishing into c's car trying to look for joseph's car (and all looking to the left, missing jo's car on the right -_-)

5) zouk with the the group and mark =) i managed to reserve a table for us.. drinking games (drinking goggles up! poooot~ =p) and getting wasted thanks to stupid long island tea =D at least i managed to get nice pictures before i got wasted -_-

6) sending di off at the airport with leon and c =( i wore my new top (that they bought for me) and my new bracelet (from them too!) =)

7) my surprise 22nd bday!!! with ntu classmates (yihao and hweeli), di, c, leon, et and juvia =) i was really utterly shocked that night.. thanks for all the planning! and i love that dress that i wore *-*

8) farewell for one of my cousins =( one of them will be going (is already in) vietnam for internship for 6 mths..

9) cookies i made for my classmates =D i baked till 4am in the morning -_-

10) chinese new yr pics with et =D just random pics of me and et.. and his sister's dogs.. or at least, one jack russell and one pig pretending to be a dog =p

11) CNY visiting with et and his friends =) some of the pics aren't with me so i'll prob have to do a part II for this =D steamboat dinners are good for a whole troupe of boys =D and after that, it's to mj/texas holdem/blackjack =D

12) zouk with et and his friends =D we went there to help a friend support her friend for a pageant thing, then continued to club.. but frances (et's friend's gf) drank too much and went down too quickly.. i had a headache from the crowd and alcohol, so we all went home early =p (we actually took abt 60 pics that night, but shall just take the few that i look least drunk/fat in =p)

13) zhisheng's 21st at indulgez bistro =p damn i didn't get the pic of them mashing his face into the cake -_-'' my lousy camera's only 2megapix and without flash (it was really dark inside -_-) so pardon the bad pics =(

14) random pics =p us in jo's wish (7seater) watching norbit while waiting to pick di up, vday flower from et, my new hair (when i just cut it and they blew my hair super straight), c's xmas present (i thought it was really fitting =D), after lunch at marche..

more pics (clubbing with my french classmates, cny pics, visiting pics) to be up soon. maybe i should just be less conscious of how i look and just put everything on facebook (and try not to care abt whether pple will think i look weird/fat/ugly).. then i don't have to do double work =p blogging it is tiring~

3:07 AM | 0 possessed

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

[ the brave one ]

"because when you love something, every time a bit of it goes, you lose a piece of yourself"

"it's astonishing, numbing to find that there is a stranger inside you. a sleepless, restless stranger that keeps moving"

"and your skin crawls, and your heart sickens, and you look at the person you once were, walking down that street, and you wonder whether you'll ever be her again"

"he believes in the law, the good, bad, and the thin, fragile line between them"

"because i could not stop for Death, he kindly stopped for me. the carriage held but just ourselves, and Immortality"

"there is no going back to that other person, that other place. this thing, this stranger, she is all you are now"

"death leaves a hole waiting to be filled"

1:52 AM | 1 possessed

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

this unknown illness is eating me from inside. i am like a worm-infested apple, seemingly normal on the outside but rotten inside.

i can't let me get to myself.

10:02 PM | 0 possessed

Friday, February 01, 2008

how do you aim high while knowing how little you can achieve?

i'm unimportant and negligible, i know.

sometimes i make myself laugh, how stupid i make myself feel when i think i matter when i don't.

i hate facebook browsing. i hate looking at myself.

5:03 PM | 0 possessed