Friday, September 21, 2007
[ cool test =D ]
11:22 PM |
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Sunday, September 16, 2007
[ reap what u sow (or the result of not sowing anything) ]
还是被讨厌了
hurts to think abt it.
even more so to still pretend to be alright and smile.
but i have to bear the consequences of my own actions (or non-actions)
12:22 AM |
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Saturday, September 15, 2007
[ yet again. ]
another long long break since the last time i blogged.. the past 1.5 mths seems to be a whole string of mad rushing.
yj left this morning =( i never seem to spend enough time with her every time she's back =( but at least this is the final time she's going away for almost the whole year =D until i go to uk to study, that is (and if it actually happens). and c's back =D i really love the times when they're back, cos i finally have friends!!! =D
just did a major cleanup/packing of my room.. feel so much better now. at least it's a much neater desk to do work on, and my notes are all organised properly now.. *-* one less thing weighing on my mind.
once again, i realise what a coward i am. everytime i encounter a situation where i get hurt or even just the possibility of getting hurt makes me run away. i just go out of my way to avoid the whole situation. i rather go through the whole pain of cutting off friends (yeah from the small handful that i have) than to face the possibility of getting hurt. even now, i realise the problem and i see the simple solution, but the thought of everything being awkward and... bad (yes et my weird logic again) that i just want to escape again. i think my "fight-or-flight" mechanism is oversensitive.
i wonder how difficult it is to change and make that change stick.
9:29 PM |
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