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Monday, January 29, 2007

damn i'm out of rubbish to look at =(

okok now to start work

[ dead beat -_- ]

it's been a week since i've blogged.. dead beat. -_- am trying to put off practicing for my presentation in abt 6 hrs time, so here i am doing useless things like this instead of sleeping. -_- i'm in serious need of sleep.

anyway, what's been happening.. hmm. been out everyday as usual.. i really have to start allocating time for studying -_-

on weds i was too lazy to move my ass out of the house, so di came over for a little while to look at pics.. and!!! she told me that she wasn't going off so early after all!! the 3 of them was gonna trick me!! =D finally met daph's kenneth (heh heh).. he seems pretty hostile, but according to di he's just shy. we went to vivo together! di finally had her superdog (it's not bad but a little pricey) where two girls kept staring at me -_- 1st thought was whether she's someone's fren, next was whether i had a wardrobe malfunction (which couldn't have been cos i was wearing a high-necked halter heh =) but it was really weird. anyway, clubbing that night was pretty ok =D daph is much more move-y than di (not so inhibited i think, which is cool =D) but it was packed (do all these pple not have to go to school??).. hmm oh before that i met some of his frens.. who seemed pretty fun! =) they were very amusing.. just that i couldn't appreciate the situation very much cos my standard (-_-) selfconscious/weird reaction kicked in. sigh. oh well anyway, despite my best efforts haha, i ended up dancing with him.. which was fun cos his dancing was really funny =D funny's the word for it la, funky was just.. being polite that night. haha! anyway.. met ahkow at the entrance, but i didn't think much of it.. till we saw eric there. sigh. -_- he and his frens and some girls.. their accusatory eyes all staring at me and at him. why did he have to say hi to me? arghhhh. so yes, bad night. oh oh oh! i finally had a tequila shot that night! it's been.. woooo time out of mind since my last shot, which is sad cos i used to love it =D

anyway, daph went back to melb on thurs =( i didn't cry this year, i'm already 21! it's abt time i got used to such stuff =D cheryl drove us there (omg!!!!) and it was so damn cool! she's pretty stable =D uncle was so funny with all his comments =D and daph, we really should have taken that run out screaming video! we went to swensens for food before daph left, and it was the exact same booth as the spoon night one year ago (that uber cute video of diana =D) cool right? after that, we went to vivo.. that blur di got confused between rotiboy and paper prata, so poor cheryl was disppointed.. ooh the pageone at vivo is super cool! i really wanna get some books.. my next indulgence, if i get a job =D c and di left, and we proceeded on to find some (ANOTHER) coffee joint.. ended up his old workplace- wild rocket, which is a very cool place, just really ulu =D had coffee (it's my first really coffee coffee and not like latte or whatever i usually get at starbucks/etc) and talked for a long long time.. as usual. haha! this is becoming an SOP heh heh.

shall upload pics again another time (yes i am a cam whore =D)

oh yeah there's still baking on fri and soccer match yday.. but i'm damn tired. and my contacts will die if i don't sleep.. so shall try to finish my 113 assignment and my presentation, then probably catch an hr of sleep..

4:08 AM | 2 possessed

Friday, January 26, 2007

[ ♥ new plaything ]

5:41 PM | 0 possessed

Monday, January 22, 2007

[ this gets a new post =) ]

I LOVE MY NEW PHONE!!!!!!!!!

yes i finally found the red razr v3 in singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

honestly speaking, the phone's crap, cos no expandable memory (4.7mb, no less -_-), lousy camera, and i hate the smsing -_-

but well. it's so damn pretty, so who cares??? =DDDDD

10:41 PM | 2 possessed

[ can u tell i'm delighted to finally get my camera back? ]

it has been a long long time since i blogged. been going out every single day, and i'm really exhausted.. not to mention really lagging behind in school and in sleep heh. been meeting friends and ddc and etc. anyway, it would be impossible (and too tiresome even if it's possible) to talk abt eveything that's been happening.. but anyway, some stuff (this is mostly for yj's sake, although that heartless girl never bothers coming here -_-) we watched curse of the golden flower! hmm it's all v extravagant, but i found the movie only a little less crappy than i'd expected (almost everyone said that it was crap -_-) and yes di's stopped working, and she's got her pay! (but she's really trying not to spend it -_-) cheryl recovered and fell sick again, daph's finally alive again heh and we finally took real pictures! only like 5 (if you don't count the weird ones i took of c combing her hair haha) at sushi tei, but well.. better than none!

really wanna spend as much time with the twins as possible before they go back.. sigh. =( see di i told u u'd be too busy after u finished working. =(

well other than this impending sadness, i really think i'm very happy nowadays.. generally speaking la. if i'm happy and high 24/7, i'll be daph. haha! but i've been having this sudden feeling of really being contented with my life, and being happy. single and free and happy i guess haha! no obligation to anyone (except maybe my parents =) and nothing tying me down. and of cos, with ddc around (but i still miss u yj =( ) ok no i'm not 100% contented with my life cos i could do with more shopping money, coping better with school and losing more weight (but hey i've lost weight! i think this is the main source of my happiness) =D

oh yeah cheryl di alex (yeah amazing right) and me went zouk last weds.. wow it was pretty packed again -_- we slacked away at zouk till almost 12, then went over to phuture.. hmm the music was good, but it wasn't fantastic like the week before (though di said the music's like 99% the same -_-) alex was there cos he FINALLY gave up on mos haha and none of his frens wanted to go that night. it was pretty ok to have a guy there.. like when some weird guy started dancing with me, i went to dance with alex so i didn't even like have to go through some awkward "no" thing.. and i saved him from some overenthu girl haha! but it's damn wrong to dance with him, he's practically my younger brother! and teaching him how to dance with a girl ("no alex ur hands goes HERE and STAYS here") was really -_- and of cos, if there's someone who's gonna bang into me, he'll shield me =D but his presence meant less guys dancing with me haha! spent half the night trying to avoid certain people, but as fate would have it, we ended up at one corner of phuture right next to them at the end of the night.. oh! it was SO FUN dancing with di and c during that last hr, esp since c was doing really hilarious stuff to the lyrics haha! kept laughing my head off at her haha! and after like 1+ years, we finally went down to the floor together again.. reminds me of our 18th yr, when we started clubbing and we did really crazy moves on the dance floor! =D ended the night on L.O.V.E. and c trying to figure out how to do the hand signs haha

I CAN'T WAIT TO GO CLUBBING WITH DDC ON WEDS!!!!!!

9:49 PM | 2 possessed

Saturday, January 13, 2007

[ i love blink 182's lyrics ]

The drops of rain they fall all over
This awkward silence makes me crazy
The glow inside burns light upon her
I'll try to kiss you if you let me
(this can't be the end)
Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now, I need you so bad
Down down down down
It gets me so
Your vows of silence fall all over
The look in your eyes makes me crazy
I feel the darkness break upon her
I'll take you over if you let me
(You did this)

i've rediscovered blink 182..i like their more emo songs =)

5:21 AM | 0 possessed

[ one last dance ]

watched that today.. finally! cos cine doesn't have confession of pain anymore (!!!!) one last dance is very confusing.. but it's cool, and alot of.. symbolism used. i love francis ng.. he's the coolest actor on earth (yes, more than johnny depp -gasp-) and yes, one last dance is worth my $9.. it made me want to watch another movie.. unimaginable huh. haha!

was a pretty.. fulfilling day. had lunch with pam and joe, then bumped into lynette and samantha (all my excolleagues).. went down to town to shop with cheryl, but before that, got stuck somewhere in raffles place cos of the super heavy downpour, so gordon had to come and save me (but i got all soaked anyway -_-).. then while waiting for another fren to meet me, i latched on to cheryl and her parents.. =) went for dinner at pasta cafe (!!) then for one last dance. i really didn't want to go home after that (cmon, it's a friday night! and my parents didn't call to check on me for once!) so we went to the hk cafe. hmmm oh yeah met fab at taka.. it's been what, 2+ yrs? i've not met him at all.. and i'm really relieved that i bumped into him when i'm all dressed up (as compared to my flipflops and shorts at j8).. i was just really stunned, and very hurt that he tried to pretend not to see me. he didn't say hi (duh) nor could i say hi under such circumstances.. sigh. it just killed my mood the whole night (and i'm very sorry for my fren cos i spent half the night sighing -_-) and it's making me depressed now. -_-

i'm really weak. i have to remind myself that i'm really happy being single (i really am, seriously). i just need someone there to hug me sometimes. but that's why i have dydct right? i miss u guys terribly.

have been feeling sick the past few days.. i've got no more appetite to speak of. sigh.. but maybe i'll lose weight this way. i just hate the nausea.

3:33 AM | 2 possessed

Thursday, January 11, 2007

[ clubbing!!!!!!!! ]

i'm so happy from clubbing yday.. the music was soooooooooooo fantastic!

took the whole day and half the night to decide to go.. but i regretted the decision right after i made it -_- unfortunately, di wasn't contactable cos her phone was out of batt.. so i just went down there. there were so many pple! but still not to the extent of sardines, so it's ok. the dance floor took a long time to fill up, so di and i just enjoyed the music at mambo and talked.. then moved to phuture and kept checking out this girl who was dancing v hotly (but she's not pretty unfortunately...) i couldn't remember how to dance! but di was really encouraging so i managed to somewhat move.

anyway, thanks to a group of really amusing pple near us, i didn't feel sian or irritated the whole night! the guys were gay-ing around (to quote di haha) and they danced really funkily haha! and the girl was really cool! we kept laughing at their antics haha!!! omg so cute =) hmmm well somehow got to know two guys from that group.. haha! =D they're really amusing haha! and from now on, i'm gonna say i'm 18.. 21 sounds way too old -_- i'm an old hag. -_-

went to vivo for the first time today! so suaku right?? haha =D it's pretty big! watched blood diamond today.. omg it's so sad.. my makeup -_- haha! cried my heart out in the movie.. so at least i don't regret it! was supposed to meet another fren for one last dance (!!!), but blood diamond was sooo long, and it ended late.. so luckily i could cancel it.. went to starbucks to talk instead =) but OMG I TOTALLY EMBARRASSED MYSELF BY STANDING UP AND BANGING MY HEAD ON THE STUPID SIGN!!!! i'm soooooooooooooo embarrassed. argh!!! -_-

i'm so tired now -_- my poor eye hurts like hell, 4 days in a row of contacts. my eyes are giving up on me -_- haha! and sigh i think i'm getting old, feeling sick ever since last night. no appetite, nausea, sore throat and abit of cough. damn! >.< or maybe it's cos i spent an afternoon with the biohazard aka cheryl. haha!

11:26 PM | 0 possessed

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

[ first and etc ]

sch's started! ok that exclamation mark is really wrong. haha! anyway, sch's pretty much ok till now.. got super lost on mon for both seminars cos they were at a different block.. but hey i wasn't the one who led us to the wrong place! anyway, i'm already lost in financial mgmt. biz law lecturer sucked pretty badly, and acct 1 just didn't make sense. i sense impending doom. haha! but my resolution is to mug like crazy this sem.. 4As! haha!

anyway, met di for shopping after sch yday.. hmm pretty fun! the dessert at creambistro is pretty good! went trying on loads of clothes at mango, then window shopped.. tried out makeup, shoes and TONS of perfumes -_- and i shall do some plugging! there's this really nice girl from shu uemura! she told us loads of stuff abt the makeup, and di tried the illuminating powder, eyelash curler and mascara! all that even though we said we wouldn't be buying makeup yet cos di hasn't gotten her pay.. she's really nice! i wouldn't mind buying the super ex mascara and face mist for her.. haha! except for the really pretty shoes at pedderred.. where there was a really cute boy who served us (way too young, though haha! he looks abt.. 18 at the most?) heh heh! the shoes were so pretty and SO DAMN PAINFUL! shall consider.. =D and di liked the kenzo perfume promoter too hehe so it was a pretty good day! =)

sch today wasn't so great.. partially cos of the lack of sleep.. i really hate 830 classes (which i have on tues and weds, and mon too if the tutor didn't push it back to 930 -_-) finally saw joonwye shanjing and some other pple i didn't see for the whole hols! =) and bridge of cos! haha

anyway, went for cindy's 21st on sat.. was pretty touched that she invited me, cos she only invited a few of our classmates, and weren't exactly close in jc.. not very la =) anyway, had fun travelling home with oliver jas ah bao and yuf.. so yes the super alot of money spent on that one event was not so bad after all =)

just finished cleaning up my room and rediscovering my table (i FINALLY unburied it under that whole mountain of trash heh) just so that i could study.. problem was, after i was done, i was too damn tired to study -_- smart eh?

12:15 AM | 2 possessed

Thursday, January 04, 2007

oh yeah and. i didn't go clubbing last night!! omg it's a first in many many weeks.. neither work nor rain nor a fever could keep me away, but.. haha! oh man i feel kinda sad.. but oh well! anyway, it's pretty sad how TWO PPLE actually smsed me asking how zouk was last night (considering how few clubbing frens i have).. and the sadder thing? they were astounded that i didn't go -_-

geez! i love going zouk on weds! but i CAN survive without it too! (though i'm glad we're clubbing this sat hahaha =)

5:43 PM | 0 possessed

[ lazyy =) ]

just came back from cheryl's house.. wow haven't had a stayover in ages! for me at least.. anyway, i'm so proud of the fact that i managed to get home smoothly even though i didn't have my contacts on! (i'm half-blind without visual aid, really =) that's two buses! =D

anyway, went for eragon yday with di, cheryl and gordon.. i remember why i didn't like the book that much.. -_- he's SO IRRITATING! -_- hmm then we just walked around, shopped, took neoprints heh heh =D dinner was at chijmes.. the service at the pizza place was really crappy -_- stayed there for hours cos it suddenly started pouring =pp it was the first time i noticed that di's scared of thunder! omg! it was really cute haha =pp

went over to cheryl's house after that long dinner.. my mascara is scary -_- i couldn't remove it no matter how much facial wash i used (cos cheryl didn't have makeup remover -_-) even when i applied the cleanser right at the lashes and ended up crying cos it really hurt my eye -_- the funny thing is, cheryl used the exact same mascara, but hers came out normally.. -_- wonder why my mascara can still smudge after a long day though.. anyway, felt so bad that seth woke up and slept in his grandma's room instead cos we were too noisy (cheryl blowing her nose, me coughing, us talking not-very-quietly haha) =pp

we had di's scrambled eggs in the morning! but i think i really shouldn't have milk and scrambled eggs first thing after i wake up, cos it really makes me feel like puking -_- rarrr. so anyway, reached home safely, suprisingly =D

was supposed to go out with.. l**ny.. but was too lazy to move haha! anyway, i wasn't interested to go ikea tampines, even if he's driving. nor did i feel like dressing up etc again. haha! i feel so sian now -_-

10 mins till audition is up again hehe

2:17 PM | 2 possessed

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

[ *-* ]

l**ny is talking to me on msn!!!!! wonder why he's suddenly so friendly...

omg i'm transported back to my l**ny-crazy aj days 4 yrs ago..

haha!

2:34 AM | 2 possessed

[ happy start to a happy new year ]

hmmmm had a jc class gathering just now.. =) suprisingly, i had alot of fun! jc was really painful for me, cos my classmates were VERY clique-ish (and it didn't help that i transferred in after the 1st 3 mths.. and a 3hr orientation only -_-) and i couldn't fit in.. probabaly found me too nerdy too antisocial and too opinionated =) i only survived cos of yj and cheryl.. but it was a v fun time too la, cos we were so close.. and we always crashed yj's house! all the act-cute/jap photos and neoprints, going out after school (and after the GP paper -_-), "studying" in the library/study rooms =pp

anyway, class gathering. i really felt abit.. reluctant to go, cos it's a potluck.. that means more awkwardness if no one talks to me.. anyway, got lost while trying to get to bukit batok mrt, but managed to find my way after all.. and bumped into some classmates at the bus stop so i was saved! food was good (yes, even the avocado blend dessert =pp) and they liked my potato salad! it was the only thing that was finished =pp played abit of bridge, and apples to apples (the most crap-generating game ever =pp) that was alot of fun, cos everyone was involved, and seriously, hearing those guys generate all those crap (like why communism is powerful or why jodie foster is playful =pp) in their serious tone was so amusing.. took loads of photos, and caught up with everyone.. and they talked to me! hehe cheap thrill i know.. might go clubbing with gillian tmr too =D

anyway, i always had a theory that.. there are some pple who only give a damn abt me if i like dress up (ie. contacts makeup and all) sometimes it's so obvious it's quite amusing.. though i really wonder, is looking nerdy really a crime?

ok can't wait for the rest of the week =D i hope this good start to the new year continues for the rest of 2007

12:25 AM | 2 possessed