Saturday, January 28, 2006
[ great music high me ]
heh went clubbing on wed.. am quite glad i didn't follow them around to momo and mdm wong's, esp since they said mdm wong's was boring =D had a superb fantabulous experience at zouk!! was so suprised when i went there at 11 on LADIES NIGHT and there was no queue.. great stuff!! =D then inside, think there was some dj battle or something.. some guy talking alot and two djs scratching like there was no tmr.. drank abit at the empty bar.. so fun to not have pple crowding the place!! the girl bartender was so rude though.. hmm talking abt drinking, think i'm quite lousy now.. used to drink much more, until that time when i got wasted after work.. now i'm quite afraid of the taste of liquor.. hmmm must buck up!! midori lemonade is SO DAMN sweet! wanna try other drinks soon.. anyway, after drinking at phuture, we went over to zouk for mambo.. met stanley there.. so sweet, gave us a jug of long island tea =D more alcohol!! couldn't get high though, esp at mambo, where i CAN'T DANCE.. i really suck.. esp since the twins were so high and dancing with each other, and cheryl's sexy enough to pull anything off.. felt so zi bei =( can't dance can't dance can't dance >.< >.< anyway, some songs at mambo was fun, but was getting too embarrassed at my non-existant dancing, esp since the twins danced so well and so many pple were looking at our direction T.T escaped to phuture alone, and stanley followed (prob cos he had no one else to go phuture with) pleasantly suprised, cos i kinda forgot how dangerous it could be alone.. the music at zouk was
SO DAMN FREAKING GOOD!!!!!!!!!!! oh man!!!! was so super happy!! they played great fast nice music.. like
SHAKE THAT THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! went high naturally.. just thinking abt the music makes me high =D i really really really really loved the music that night!!! then the rest came over to phuture.. sat at a table with daph cos she was dizzy, while cheryl and di went to dance.. the music was great.. superb.. fantastic!!! was dancing in my seat =pp then daph and i got "ambushed" by a group of guys.. they opened two bottles of chivas and needed help drinking.. of cos we didn't drink.. HATE CHIVAS =p and daph was sick.. so we drank their water.. and made small talk so we didn't seem so cheapo =D too bad for them they didn't want to dance, we're not freeloaders =D then FINALLY got our asses on the floor again... MAN!! THE MUSIC WAS GOOD!!! the 4 of us and jac and marianne were dancing together.. of cos jac and cheryl had guys hitting on them non-stop! and di had a guy dancing with her too =ppp hehehehehe.. didn't know abt it then, but there was this loser guy rubbing his groin on cheryl! they saved her, think daph and di also had the same experience? if i'd known, i might have stomped on him or something.. how dare he harrass my friends!!!!! -growls- but anywya, the music was so good that i left at 3+... when my original intention was to leave at 1plus 2.. hehehe that was the greatest night of music ever!! except that they didn't play na nana na... if they did, think i'd have died happily =pp
8:14 PM |
2 possessed
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
[ tired ranting ]
busy.
am troubled. seems like everytime i blog, it's when i'm sad and/or troubled.
miss yj.
am so sick of work that prevents me from spending more time with cheryl di daph like watching movies, going shopping, staying over, just bumming around doing nothing. i hate it i hate it i hate it. now that i have a choice on whether or not to extend my contract, i can't decide. i hate the hours, the fact that i have to do everything based on certain people's moods, i can't even make friends and go out with them without getting backlash (considering that this is my personal life and they do not have the right to criticise what i do in my personal life). but i probably wouldn't be able to find a part time job, the pay is good, i've got friends there, my mum wants me out of the house. is there a point in working just for the money. a tiny detached part of me tells me that the only reason why i don't want to work is cos i realise it's so materialistic to work only cos of the money, and i want to prevent myself from becoming that. i want to have some time, to slack around and have the freedom of having time on my side. it's worse than school, the fact that i've been going 6 months without having a chance to have a break.
then there's the schooling problem. which is for another day.
my mum doesn't want to listen, but just wants me to follow her wishes. my bf would rather not talk abt these stuff nor give an answer cos cos he doesn't want to risk facing the backlash from giving an opinion. it is so thick-skinned to keep talking abt one's own problems when with other pple.
am going out of my mind trying to figure out what i want.
i feel like letting go. abandon everything and run away to nottingham. wait till the problem comes knocking at the door before i acknowledge it.
honest thoughts. i guess i'm just to bothersome and irritating with all my problems, all the decisions to make. guess friends are more tolerant cos they don't face it as much as he does. feel like a pest. am i only loved when i'm happy, acting cute, making the decisions the other party doesn't want to make, everything only to a shallow level? is that all i deserve? maybe. my punishment, retribution? maybe i'm too dependant. but am i really able to, allowed to make the decisions myself? will everyone really not second-talk me, nor blame me for choosing what i did?
am being flattened by all the thoughts in my head.
12:27 AM |
1 possessed
