Sunday, October 30, 2005
[ h2g2 and other things ]
came online cos i wanted to talk abt h2g2, which i watched partly alone in eric's house cos he went to play soccer (and is half an hour late in coming back, but well.) and i saw yj di cheryl online oh man!!! how come NO ONE BOTHERED TO ASK ME TO COME ONLINE! >.< anyway. back to h2g2. it's really an absurd show, and the first half was barely understandable at best (thanks to the thick brit accent and maybe the comp speakers? =) eric was so bored, i told him to go play soccer if he wanted to, and that's why i watched the other half alone. the puns were so difficult to catch (or maybe i was just slow), but well.. the 2nd half was good.. and really mad.. but still. pretty much enjoyed it.
anyway, saw all u guys online, but!! everyone was planning to go offline.. =( i still don't know anything abt daylight saving (can u guys enlighten me, or must i go check wikipedia?! =) and i might try out maple story if it;s really that interesting..
update on my life. everything's routine and boring and days really pass v fast cos everyday's just work work work, the only variation i have in life is whether i'll have dinner at home, with eric or with eric at my house. and now that the person i'm supposed to cover has gone on maternity, it's just me now. i think i prefer to just cope alone rather than them getting another temp to help me (which is what they;re doing) cos i dunno whether i'm up to teaching someone the ropes when i'm barely grasping them as it is..
anyway, smart old me was so caught up with work that i didn't realise how fast the days passed, and i forgot abt lnat. yes, i forgot to sign up for the damned lnat, and that is SO gonna get me into law fac. although the lnat wouldn't help much, but well, it's better than nothing. sometimes, i think i'm so caught up with work, i'm losing sight of my goal - to get into law fac.
and. if i can't get into law fac (which is almost a certainity now), i guess... i might just end up being a banker.
8:50 PM |
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Thursday, October 27, 2005
by tomorrow, everything will be fine. we'll continue along whatever path we're on, as per usual, and brush this off.
but tonight, just tonight, it is not fine.
hope against hope, receive an sms and see your hope meter explode, only for it to plummet to zero when you hear
"the system is not getting a response from the subscriber's mobile phone".
i cannot call him. nor can i expect him to call me instead of sms that msg.
there are so many, too many things that i cannot, must not do.
i just can't stop crying. i want to give up. but i can't neither bring myself to end it nor bring myself to live with it.
10:48 PM |
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[ unquestioned. unanswered. ]
"why did you cry"
"did you have dinner in the end"
"why were you so angry"
"is work ok"
"how was the fried rice"
"why do you suddenly feel self destructive again"
i feel hopelessly restricted.
love isn't a freedom, it's all bound by rules, regulations and reluctant compromises.
i've become estranged from everyone, everything in my life. partly because i am totally sick of explaining why i'm working now. and i'm sick of trying to evade the truth.
i really hate my life now. i hate every part of it. there is no joy anymore, only fights, tears, stress, and shallow pseudo-friendship (aka workplace-friendship).
really just want to go outside, sit down and get drenched in the rain. then i can really cry my heart out. and it doesn't matter that i've already ran out tears, the rain performs the same function.
fling myself out of the window, carve myself up. i don't know what i want to do with this.
frankly, i don't understand. sometimes, i really think i don't know anything. and i don't know whether he cares.
i'm getting all upset over their breakup too.
10:03 PM |
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Thursday, October 20, 2005
[ quiz things ]
realise that the only time i do quizzes is when i see them on diana's blog =p anyway, here they are:
| You Are a Bloody Mary |
You're a fairly serious drinker, who's experimented a lot with different drinks.
You're a drunk, but a stable drunk. You don't ever let your drinking get out of control. |
| You Are an Indie Rocker! |
You are in it for the love of the music...
And you couldn't care less about being signed by a big label.
You're all about loving and supporting music - not commercial success.
You may not have the fame and glory, but you have complete control of your career. |
haha oh man the next one is so true...
| How You Are In Love |
You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You tend to take more than give in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
.. esp the "You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time" part
| C |
You tend to notice the big things in life...
But the details aren't exactly your forte |
hmmm?
| Your Seduction Style: Au Natural |
You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.
You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?
You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you. |
don't reallyt hink it's true:
| Your Power Color Is Indigo |
At Your Highest:
You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you.
At Your Lowest:
You require a lot of attention and praise.
In Love:
You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are.
How You're Attractive:
You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic.
Your Eternal Question:
"Does This Work Into My Future Plans?" |
| Cheese Pizza |
Traditional and comforting.
You focus on living a quality life.
You're not easily impressed with novelty.
Yet, you easily impress others. |
haha it is SO not old!!:
| What Your Underwear Says About You |
Your underwear is probably really, really old.
You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone. |
8:39 PM |
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