Monday, August 22, 2005
[ tired. bleah. ]
sigh. am fricking tired. but at least it's not a draggy day at work today.. hopefully the afternoon passes as quickly as the morning did..
anyway, am feeling a little depressed, most prob cos of my exhaustion and cos of the stupid period. can't wait to get home and just sleep.. so in a way it's a good thing that yj can't make it tonight.. dunno why, just feel upset, for no reason. to the extent that i lost my appetite.. woke up starving, and i didn't have the time to really fill my stomach this morning, but somehow i was actually considering not buying anything to eat since i wasn't hungry, and too tired to walk out and buy food for myself. succumbed to routine, and just bought something that i didn't feel like eating, but then again, i don't have appetite for anything. tired. sigh.
anyway, me and him. we finally talked it out, and really tried to discuss how to iron out all the problems that we somehow managed to fight over and over again about, but never got round to really solving. anyway, thanks yj and erwin for the supper (SO COOL! YJ ACTUALLY SNUCK OUT FOR SUPPER WITH US!! =D ) and for the lengthy talk in the car -> erwin.. and of cos cheryl for waking me up at 8+am to tell me she'll be there for me, which IS v sweet, but still doesn't erase the fact that i received it only an hour after i slept =ppp and also for calling me last night =D so happy to chat with cheryl on the phone =D
diana (and daph) =D yay! finally got my (our) parcel.. =D hope u guys like the stuff..
anyway, gonna go eat my food now.. email, u guys! =D
1:08 PM |
1 possessed
Saturday, August 20, 2005
[ bad day (-daniel powter) ]
other pple's happiness can be my own.
was listening to bad day, and looking through erwin's pics on flickr.. see the pics that he and cheryl took, read his blog, and i really wished both of them could be together. heartache.
weepy night tonight. must be hormonal imbalance. wonder if you lose alot of hormones through your blood (cheryl?). been crying at every little thing. even cos of my mum (being mean). and when i saw the email he sent me, simple little thing that only said "tink u wan tis", and only a song attached, but yet conveyed much more than that.. esp since we were having a.. erm heated philosophical debate abt love. elusive thing, innit.
oh, and i'm on a contraceptive. the Pill.
okok don't get fits, it's nothing much, cos of my period. the doctor prescribed it to me, i think half cheating my money. $90 bucks. but well. hope it doesn't kill me. think i'll take it soon.
12:42 AM |
0 possessed
Monday, August 15, 2005
[ everything and nothing ]
tired. work drains me.
anyway, super duper wants:
office politics burdens me. i might not be involved, but knowing just makes me feel more cautious, more wary of people, and in the same way, i worry about the consequences of my mistakes more. i'm too idealistic for this. sigh.
i've become more easily satisfied since i started work. my happiness comes from having my name remembered, my enjoyment stems from having mail in the team mailbox, and my satisfaction is derived from calculating rows of figures and having them tally.
other satisfaction. on th 14th of august 2005, a miracle happened. i actually led 4-2 playing PES4 with eric.. and he used inter! am i good? =D and i eventually lost 6-5.. =( but! i still won the bet! (now u know why i was playing so well =D) he had to go buy me chicken wings and fries =D lost miserably the next 3 matches haha! =p he was so confident of winning that he let me have a 6 goal lead k! =ppp anyway, it's a day to remember. don't think it'll ever happen again =p
10:14 PM |
1 possessed
Thursday, August 11, 2005
[ work and everything else ]
hmm. was a pretty bad day at work today. woke up late, missed the bus, missed my bus stop and ended up somewhere at lau pa sat, and i almost lost my way finding my workplace. then ended up with shitty work the whole morning...
work's just abt the centre of my life now, and everything else revolves around it. that's really sad, but well, it helps me live a more normal life.. not to mention the pay =) there are really all kinds of pple at the workplace.. thankfully i haven't met a backstabber, but still. some pple are so obviously bootlicking the uppers that u'd wonder how they can stand themselves. some pple just dump u their work and then relax, chitchat on the phone. others ask u to help them (it's not as if my job there is to help them, but my boss), and then get so upset and mean when there's any discrepancies (esp since it was cos the shanghainese can't understand me -_-). and the worst: pple who dump their work on u and relax, but yet don't bother to find out ur name. -_- and it's shitwork- filing. ugh. precisely why they rather pass it on.
anyway, my immediate colleagues are nice =D v funny pple! feel abit out of place and foreign still, not to mention quite useless, but i hope things will get better =) the location's pretty nice, near to club street and amoy street and all the other rustic places =D if only i have the time to walk around.. the long hours aren't really killing me yet, despite OTs one every few days =) quite like work =) except that it provides my parents with the perfect excuse to force me to stay at home more. >.<
haven't had the time to do much this whole first week of work, but i hope i'll be able to take time out for my jap classes.. and shopping =D i need more working clothes! so far, my pathetic wardrobe consists of only 3 colours: black, white, and exactly the same shade of beige for 3 different pieces of clothing. sigh. -_-
so far, that's it for now. and oh yeah, my dad just mentioned casually that i should save up and take a break in melbourne end of this yr =D the problem is, i definitely can't go away then, cos the person i'm helping will be on maternity leave from nov, so i have to take her place for 3 months.. think i'll be free from march onwards =D hopefully!
9:25 PM |
0 possessed
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
[ long quiz ]
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. tiffany
2. tiff
3. ni (-chan)
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. eyelashes
2. hair (i guess..)
3. fingers
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. skin
2. arms
3. everything else not mentioned in the previous qn =p
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
like cheryl, i don't understand too.. but following di's example..
1.i'm purely hokkien from at least 4 generations back =D not too mean a feat, since my granddad came from china =)
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. heights (or rather, i think it's falling)
2. horror/thriller/suspense movies
3. sometimes, hope.
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. specs
2. handphone
3. something to read, even if it's just labels or instruction manuals (yes i used to read that alot when i was much younger, for want of better things to read)
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. sc pe tee
2. baggy pink shorts
3. specs
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. i grow out of songs after awhile, and there isn't one band or singer that i can safely call my favourite, but lifehouse songs never fails to startle me into liking them again after a long period of absense
2. scgs band =)
3.
FIVE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS:
1. sway- the perishers
2. goodnight goodnight- hot hot heat
3. walking after you- foo fighters / buddy holly- the weezers (can't decide which i like better. depends on mood =)
5. shake that thing- sean paul (my ultimate clubbing song =)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. love
2. understanding
3. something that lasts..
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. hope eats away at me
2.
3.
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. shortsightedness (guys wearing specs have an added appeal, but only if they appeal to me in the first place)
2. hair
3. everything i thought appealed to me has been eroded. silliness. so i guess just those 2
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. read
2. shop
3. roll around in bed (esp when i wake up to a rainy day)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. sleep
2. shop
3. read a mag
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. lawyer
2. domestic overseer
3. medical researcher
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. russia for the museams, the rich history
2. japan for the culture, the language
3. deep inside my mind to really understand the nooks and crannies of my mind
THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Adrian (don't ask me why. it just makes me visualise a really tall, lean, funny, spikey haired, bespectacled-in-the-cool-way guy. which is the type that catches my eye) or maybe adrianna (though i really don't like the only adrianna i know)
2. Aurora (u'd be lying if u don't associate this name with a ravishing long haired beauty like princess aurora)
3. Tristan (i do realise i like more archaic-like names like this, incld Arielle, Raiane etc.. as well as "A" names =)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. read all my favourite books
2. settle my family and make sure they're all cared for
3. write letters to those dearest and closest to my heart
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. admire/look at girls (face chest and everything else a guy looks at)
2. i like my gadgets and games
3.
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i like to dress up and look pretty
2. emotional
3. i like pink and glittery stuff, makeup, mags, accessories, hearts, rainbows, angels and cute hedgehog stamps from penny black
THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. the most serious one has to be daniel wu *-*
2.
3.
THREE PEOPLE THAT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW:
1) those who's bother and i care abt have already done this.. but yj (lagging behind as usual =)
2)
3)
10:10 PM |
2 possessed
[ random musings ]
hmmm.
since when did secondary school kids look so young and childish? or is it just that i've grown up.. or old, in cheryl's eyes?
is it possible to live without the electric drill?
(this came about last week, when the stupid drilling started at 11am right under my house. ugh >.<)and other impt stuff that i'll all lump in this post.. in the prev post, i mentioned not clubbing till u guys are back right? well i think that'll hold, cos.. i've just got a job! have been going for interviews and stuff.. and i've finally landed a secretary job at citibank.. it's doesn't pay that much (i mean, it's only a secretarial job..) but well, it's better than nothing =D 830-630, mon to fri =D i hope i'll be able to get along with the pple there.. not so much make friends, but at least not enemies.. well, hopefully i'll be able to earn enough to travel next year.. wonder whether i should go to aussie or stay in japan and immerse myself in the culture for a month, if i ever do have the money to travel.. anyway, i start work tmr.. feeling excited and dreading it at the same time..
was pretty busy last week.. only real thing to note: went out with eric's frens on sat night for supper, after playing mj and ps2 (or rather, they played while i watched and my non-existant skills in pes4 was laughed at by eric >.<).. was pretty fun =D and the best thing abt going for interviews and getting a job: it makes my parents so much happier that they let me stay out till 2+ goodnaturedly, no nagging etc, and my mum paid for all the working clothes i(we) bought =D so happy with my haul: beige skirt, beige pants (i like it, looks so professional hehe), black pants, black striped shirt, and black short-sleeved shirt =) only for a bag and maybe heels =D
have so many things that i want to buy now that i'm gonna work.. oh no i need some self-control.......
7:15 PM |
0 possessed
