Thursday, April 28, 2005
[ inkblot test =) ]
Tiffany, your subconscious mind is driven most by Curiosity
You are full of questions about life, people, and your own potential. You spend more time than others imagining the possibilities for your life — and you're open to things others are too afraid to consider.
You have an almost physical need to know and do more. It's only through new experiences that you feel a greater understanding of yourself and the world. You also have a rebellious streak that shows up when you feel unable to truly influence the world or circumstances around you. Your appetite for novel experiences also shows an openness others don't have, but wish they did.
Your psyche is very rich; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.
1:14 AM |
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
[ growing up sucks ]
haha i'm too lazy to keep typing the same thing, so shall just publish an extract from my email to cheryl:
don't think i'll study in aust, no matter what.. i think. i'm not sure! i don't know! unless i can get into anu or something... so it should be uk or singapore. no idea la. very confused by what my mum said, and i kinda regret not applying to singapore unis properly. like i should have applied for ntu accountancy and smu anyway, since it's only 10 bucks per sch and not 100 like aust =) so most prob i'll be wasting 1-2 years, either retaking a's, taking a year in nus before transferring to law (if it's actually possible), or doing a foundation year (if my parents end up convincing me to take medicine). i have absolutely no urge to be a doctor. i can imagine the easy part, when i'm already a doctor, curing people, dispensing medicine and advice, kindly soul, save the world yada yada. but i can't take the blood and the stuff (i feel sick just reading diana's blog entries about lab work), and i hate chem. sigh. i think my parents think that since i'm gonna take out a loan anyway, i might as well take one with a better job prospect and pay -_-
anyway, my dad doesn't plan to come back till july, so he wants me and my mum to go there. and i might go to hawaii.. which is cool, cos sadly enough, i've never been that far before =) keep going to japan and aust only.. but then if i go it'll be for about a month.. i'll miss him =( but not like i'll be around much if i go overseas. sigh. that'll be really painful. am i stupid? if i do go abroad to study (which is likely, since i didn't get the letter from nus), i.. might break up with him. i'm no longer so naive abt love, i guess. and i definitely don't believe in a long-dist r/s, not for me. it's too difficult, and i'm too insecure. i'll die, and i have no faith in myself. haha. oh well. sigh
as i was ranting to cheryl just now, really wish we didn't have to grow up. or at least, wish we studied harder and got our As. then we won't have to separate, at least not the whole dydctee.. and create a whole slew of problems. i won't be able to come back much if i do go uk. i don't think i'll die of homesickness or anything, cos if i have to, i think i'll survive (just thinking abt how much money i'll owe the bank will erode away all of it), but i don't know if i can really get a second-class upper. i dunno i dunno i dunno i dunno i dunno. nus law was the best cos i won't have to go away then, and it's much cheaper than overseas. MUCH MUCH cheaper. but sigh. i have no chance la. getting all depressed just thinking about school.
had a long long long talk with my mum today.. which was good cos she's been screaming at me everyday the past few days, so i was all ready to run away from home. what she told me to weigh, all the pros and cons. think i really have to do it. and see what exactly can i do. sigh.
12:19 AM |
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Monday, April 18, 2005
[ tagboard.. ]
decided to get a tagboard since i'll never be able to get the comments thing to work -_- all for u, diana =pppppp
anyway, it's been a long time since i've blogged... gonna be more pro-active abt my life now! new me!! (yeah, right. think i won't even last one day -_-)
gotta go meet my cousin now.. diana! better tag yeah!! =pp
2:55 PM |
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