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> Friday, February 06, 2009 <

+ because i was too bored to sleep

well the intention of starting this was 1) i was too bored to sleep, and 2) more stuff after thinking abt the random 25 note on facebook. (but actually i'm quite sleepy now hehe)

recently, more and more people have commented that i have a very dao face. i have no idea why though.. according to et, my face is very scary when i don't smile.. which is most of the time. maybe cos i look at things/people very intently (et says i stare at pple all the time) and i don't really blink. haha! and yh thinks my scared face is very dao. =p i dunno, i'm always worried abt how i look, when i walk i have to concentrate on not falling down, etc. i'm usually never at ease, cos i'm so conscious and scared. that's why my face looks very closed and thus dao? i have no idea man..

and talking about never being at ease and always conscious, i think i really hate getting attention. -_- unless i'm VERY sure that it's friendly attention. i hate answering or asking questions in class (simon knows cos gawd how many times have i refused to offer answers in class and made him say it for me =p) cos i think people will laugh at my qns/answers and confirm their suspicions that i'm a bimbo. and today, when i was walking to and around cine waiting for yj to arrive, i was super scared cos people were looking at me.. it might have been normal glances, but it totally freaked me out. I HATE GETTING ATTENTION! argh. it scares the hell out of me. same for in clubs, i hate making eye contact with people so i keep them closed and fixed on DYDC.. strangers, please don't come up to me and talk to me. i'll probably hyperventilate and die. haha!

at 3:44 AM * 0 hearts dreamt

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