+ and when the heart is set for eternity . .

> Friday, November 18, 2005 <

+ still up but i don't know why

i was actually going to sleep. i even let my comp shut down. but i pressed the reset button in the end. just felt like blogging, maybe due to the guilt. have been too exhausted from work. it's not that easy to get scolded/criticised everyday, and force it not to affect me by just blocking it out, and forcing myself to just let go.

i've realised the importance of connections. alot of things at work that i can't settle, but i call one person to ask (beg pitifully) for help, and then i get even closer to the finish line. not that i know alot of pple, but i have to talk to many people to get things done or to follow up with some stuff etc, so well. better than nothing. i've definitely been much more patient, just grit my teeth and bear with everything, cos i'll probably have to ask for help from the same people again soon. trust me, all the disrespect that they show, i just grin and bear. that's my motto now, grin and bear, let it roll off and let it go.

feel very distanced from everything, mostly u guys. i don't really want to email or anything, though i do read the mass emails, when they do come. it didn't really occur to me how soon everyone's (except for yj of cos) will be coming back.. wish i could talk to u guys more, but well, the time diff really makes a diff, not to mention ur exams. i really lose track of time and days when i work, in relation to my personal life (which is non-existant). alot of ideas in my head now. but anyway, will discuss combined bday ideas again.

my fave pair of heels broke. now i have no comfy shoes.

new shoes i bought that were quite pretty totally ate up my toes. sigh.

at 12:38 AM * 0 hearts dreamt

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