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> Monday, January 03, 2005 <

can't decide whether yday was a horrible/disgusting day, or it was still ok.. think the day part of it was ok, and the night was horrible. sigh.

nvm abt little india, volunteer work, indian food, being perpetually cold and soaking wet, aj og outing at cafe cartel, sinful HUGE chocolate cake, pretty neoprints we took and i lost, 6 bucks of travelling fare just cos i'm using an adult card now.

those were still ok.

seems like everytime i talk to pk at night, it ends up horrible. he actually asked me out for lunch today, cos he didn't have the time to treat me to lunch on his bday.. so all was fine and dandy at 10, he coerced me to meet him at kap cos it's near his school. then suddenly he smsed me to say he didn't want to meet after all, and asked me not to ask. knowing me, i called him and forced it out of him. turns out that.. he likes me. again. after all the trouble we had when i liked him and he liked another girl, all the talk abt not wanting to try again when we met on his bday.. he said he's jealous of eric. etc. i started out making fun of him, jokin, making him jealous etc.. he played along too. then it got serious.. sigh. i feel so guilty, it's the FOURTH time... and i still had to say no. this time, i had to say no out of responsibility... but why!?!? we can never work out.. his timing is forever this lousy.. if he told me like. 10 days earlier, i wouldn't even need to think abt it. i'll just say yes. sigh.

at 1:33 PM * 0 hearts dreamt

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